I'm 32, British and currently living in the UK. I grew up playing sports, and was always fairly active and keen to live life to the fullest. In 2012 I was prescribed Bromazepam abroad after going a year with undiagnosed asthma and reduced lung capacity, which led to anxiety. There were no warnings given and I followed doctors' orders; taking the drug as prescribed for 4 years, until I returned to the UK due to concern about inexplicable heart palpitations.

 

Once in the UK, I found out the drug is so dangerous that it's only prescribed for 1 week maximum here.

 

Without knowing the risks I'd cold-turkey-ed the drug which increases the danger even more. Almost overnight I lost the ability to function normally, and over the coming months lost my job, home and life as I knew it. For 2.5 years doctors couldn't explain what had happened, until in April 2019 a paramedic recognised the symptoms as being Protracted Benzodiazepine Withdrawal.

 

In 3.5 years I've had over 30 ambulances for tachycardia (where the heart has been beating above 120bmp for more than 20minutes with no exertion), just 1 of an A-Z of symptoms; related to the massive impact the drug has on the central nervous system (CNS). Eventually the CNS does apparently re-balance itself, but nobody can say when.

Meanwhile, there is no treatment available to cope with the symptoms. The only remedy to help mitigate the effects of Benzodiazepine withdrawal is 'distraction therapy'.

With this in mind I decided to set myself the challenge of writing the soundtrack for the film as part of my recovery, and explore the role of creativity in healing. The film will also explore the powers of surfing in healing and well-being too.

Music - https://soundcloud.com/emjhames

 
 
 
 
 

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